More and more I am aware of sensations in my body that talk to me.
I can't dwell here as I write this as it feels like I am committing something to this page that I barely want to be truthful about to myself.
A fellow blogger and very generous wise Woman "greenwoman" has written several posts recently that have touched me quite deeply. ( here and here ) As I've read them I've known that there were many things within her words that I needed to notice and feel and quietly tuck away inside me to turn over when I was ready.
Right now, here in the early light of Monday morning, I have turned over her words that are etched on beautiful smoothed dove-grey pebbles, and the under side of each pebble is now glinting at me, and the words that I need to say are this.
I know that the full expression of who I am, and all I can be, will never be found within the love between he and I. His love for me ( it feels wrong to quantify love ) so maybe I will say his time and energy and the restrictions on our relationship mean that I will never get all that I desire.
Saying those words is just me starting to get a feel for them. I don't feel ready yet to commit to what that really means.
2 comments:
((hugs)) Truth is sometimes a very painful thing to live within...but on the other side of all that is joy.
This has proven true in my life many, many times. I trust this. *smiles*
Hi Shannee
I believe that there is so much on the other side.
I think what I am most confused by just now is whether the fasting is necessary as a step in between the other side, or if you can just step from one to the other when the time feels right?
X
P.s. even just writing that I hear how ridiculous that must sound, that of course it must take more than a step. I think I am just in danger of " settling" until something else is there, but I am sure whilst I am settling I am also still stuck.
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